***birthdays***

this blog is dedicated to all the April-ites that i noe

wishing u guys a vewy happy birthday =)
may all the good things come rollin' down your way...
hehe.

11th Allyssa Tang
14th Wan Ahmad Shimir & Fikri Saim
15th Lutfi
28th Clarissa Chua
30th Syikin Md. Nor


***HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!***

snippets

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yesterday
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- celebrated syikin's and clare's birthday. they've got themselves the weirdest birthday cake ever.haha! a bit like patchwork.an almost full mousse cake+2 slices of black forest.comell.=).akan sentiasa diingati.u guys have hit the big twenty-two.happy birthday! luv ya.
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today
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election means holiday.(lets keep it simple) and indirectly means that we are limited to the confinement of the hostel fences.feels like prison? i think so too.why? hurm.for safety...as a mean of protection in case the crowds get aggressive with all this political stuff.so, it can be inferred that we are already safe in this place? i hope so.well, at least it would help to cure me from thinking "is safe to go out?" over and over again.and at least,it gives me time to blog.heh.

no school. more sleeping hours.
bangun.
coffee.
study? (tolonglah buat)
movie.yeay!
story books.yeay!
online.yeay!
swollen throat.lagi
mar&mas tak de.busannn.

p/s:mami if ure reading this,jangan lupe makan ubat ye

continuation

Kami tahan dengan sindirannya, sebab kami sayang dia, kami tahu itu caranya dia bersenda gurau...
Kami bersabar dengan 'mood swing'nya, sebab kami sayang dia, memahami dia mungkin ada masalah tersendiri...
Kami beri teguran padanya, mungkin dirasakan kasar, sebab kami sayang dia, kami ingin membetulkan kesalahannya...
Kami berterima kasih padanya kerana singgah ke dalam hidup tiap-tiap kami yang seketika cuma.

p/s: dah 3x sebut 'kami sayang dia',jadi mmg betul

snippets

vivid
finaalllyy.there's something to do here.this vivid thingy is a yearly event,well,more of an inter class cultural competition actually and also there are some sport events involved.this is the only time of the year for everyone to get themselves detached from their books but that is obviously not applicable to me tho...=D i do it like everyday?

microb practicals on friday 3/4/09 at 10am

1.9.15am - still struggling with Gram's staining procedures.

2.while waiting for my spotters turn - still struggling with those unidentifiable bacterium.they look alike!

in the laboratory

3.scanning the row of lecturers for my viva voce.

4.i want the professor in the blue-shirt to take my viva.he is well known for asking reasonable questions.

5.finished staining my slides.placed the slide on the microscope and started to focus the lenses.got it.

6.a lecturer walked pass by.not the blue-shirt.pretending to focus.

7.he passed.im not his victim.*fuhh*

8.a lady lecturer walked passed by me.im still pretending.

9.alas,the blue-shirt professor approached my table.abruptly lifted my head and with a wide grin plastered across my face,"Sir,im done" hehe.got him.my viva questions were normal.phew!

why waste the opportunity to choose while you can,right? =D

RAYA
i wanna go home this year!!! yelp.

reschedule

i thot it was just rumors,like most of the things that happens here.

but it was not.

omg.

its for real.

my external examination has been reschedule,to an earlier date.

its early June people!

schmucks.

buah fikir

waves of anger are descending upon me today.
kenapakah? hmm.geram bangat yang tak tertahankan.hingga membuat keputusan tidak ke kelas? sbb DADH kah? heh.salah satu penyebab,walaupun mungkin bukan yang terutama.

pernahkah terfikir,orang yang selalu kita sakiti adalah orang yang paling menyayangi kita? ironi. orang yang sentiasa memikirkan,melihat gerak geri kita dari hujung alis matanya.hmm.mungkin juga dialah orang yang selalu ingin memastikan kita selamat apabila kita tiada dalam pandangannya.orang ini,tidak lelah cuba memahami dan sering cuba mencari jalan untuk membantu.tidak pernah memikirkan imbuhan sikap baiknya.semakin kita melarikan diri darinya,semakin ketat dia menghampiri.silap diri,orang inilah yang sering kita tepikan dan dijadikan tempat melepaskan amarah.sesuka hati.berkata tanpa berfikir.tanpa cuba untuk memahami mungkin dia akan sakit hati.kadang-kadang mungkin juga kita cuba untuk melihat,sejauh manakah dia boleh bertahan. "sampai manakah? sampai bilakah?" adilkah untuk berbuat begini? bagaimana jika tiba satu masa orang ini melepaskan pegangan tangannya,dan sudah tidak endah.apa akan jadi? terumbang-ambingkah? terasa kehilangan barangkali? atau mungkin juga keras hati hingga tidak merasakan apa-apa atau tidak sedikit pun cuba untuk menunjukkan reaksi lantas terus menipu diri sendiri.

everyone in our life has a role to play,isn't it? walaupun,kala ini,kita mungkin tidak rasa signifikan seseorang itu dalam hidup kita,suatu masa nanti,kita pasti akan berfikir kembali.mencari silap yang mungkin atau tidak dimaafkan.pada masa itu hanya tinggal malu&sesal? jika ada.jika belum terlewatkan.mungkin juga cara kita bersikap terhadap setiap orang berbeza mengikut ranking kepentingan mereka dalam hidup kita.ranking melangkau sejauh sampah hingga permaisuri hatiku.fuhh.tapi,itulah hakikatnya.manusia memang sering membeza-bezakan.aku pun terlibat.tidak dapat dinafikan.lemah.

globetrotting

they say that “journeys widen the horizon,” i say, the wider it stretches,the more money i lose.hehe.guess i hafta go through the next 2 months on low budget.its ok,learned lotsa things throughout,and that is priceless.

NEW DELHI

[Capital of India]
nice place.suprisingly less hectic than Bangalore.(tribute to the driver whom had successfully avoid traffic jams).we mingled around Connaught Place most of the time.basically, u can get almost everything u need there.New Delhi seems more traditional compared to Bangalore,with more of historical sites and old buildings.i had a non-self explanatory “antique feeling” on the place,somehow.


[Metro]
1st impression: woaaah! Wide, spacious trains and the station somehow resemble Putra LRT Masjid Jamek&KLCC,KL.i loike! and the fee is just 8 rupees.cool.


[Karim’s]
when u travel to the Old Delhi or Hazrat Nizamuddin,this place is a must.omg.i have never tasted kababs which are as good as those that can be found here in my entire life.[exaggerating] hehe.seriously.


[Jama’ Masjid]
one of the oldest mosque found in Old Delhi.unlike any onther mosque,the praying area is wide open and uncovered.the building is made of red sand stone with remarkable old architecture.the specialty of this mosque is that they kept in their possession,a stone in which is engraved the footstep of our dearly beloved Prophet Muhammad’s SAW. besides that,a strand of Prophet Muhammad’s SAW beard and one side of his slipper is also kept here. =),and also old Quran scripts which belongs to Saiyidina Hassan bin Ali RA.


AGRA

[Taj Mahal]
Speechless.


JAIPUR

[Elephant,elephant,elephant]
Location: Amber Fort


SHIMLA

[Where are we again?]
Location: Mall Road


MANALI

[Unexpected]
we,as always,made another surprise! plan to our journey by adding Manali into the picture.”Hey guys,manali is just another 5 hours from Shimla…let’s go!” craaazy ppl.kinda reluctant at first,thinking that we’re not doing it according to plan,more money involve,longer journey hours and etc…but then again,wth,right? heh.so we went.and im glad we did.it turned out to be the most memorable one.=)

[Untouched beauty]
its early spring in Manali.u can still find snow covering half up to 2/3 of the mountains from the peak.its reaaally beautiful.plus,little white&pink flower buds are also seen at the stems of apple trees littering the streets.*huu* the water is unmistakably bluish-green.
serene.-_-


Tribute to Mr.Kamal.
our super cool driver! the stern look on his face somehow gives us a form of protection from any “external disturbances.”hehe.talking bout if looks could kill.really punctual,this guy.well,its more like before time.4 stubborn girls actually obeyed his instructions? he must be really good,huh? we literally woke up at 5.30 in the morning to go skiing in the shivering cold because he said so.craaazy.he shud join the army. ^o^

***

it seems that there was an error.hehe.
number of days of bunking classes : 3 (including today =)).
id only be physically present if i go to classes today.so,no difference huh?

basketball
finally i get to play.we formed a new team known as "teja".that was the name that came across my mind in split seconds.the reality: a fresh brand new team,havent been playing for a long-long time,successively breeding adipose tissues,joined a tournament.cool! hehe.we have lose our first match.but its ok.should take this as an introduction rite and move forward.need more time to build chemistry.chewah! today,theres another match.we came up with new plans.i hope itll succeed.gambatte.

10 o'clock
after the match this evening,we have to rush back,get ready and tonight,iA the 4 of us will be leaving for Bangalore Airport.the latest is by 10.i guess,ill be really tired and just doze off all the way.(allyssa said that even if i dont play in the evening id be sleeping anyway--haha!).

apesal belum travel lagi dah rase penat?...fuhh.

kata hati

hunch is a gift,right? aku fikir ianya adalah tanda bahawa aku sedang mendengar kata hati.kadang-kadang gerak hati sangat jelas,tapi sendiri memilih untuk tidak endah.barangkali egois.kadangkala,takut untuk mengikut apa yang dirasakan betul.hebatnya gerak hati hinggakan boleh dijadikan "lie detector" apabila berbual dengan orang lain.boleh tahu bila orang tidak berkata benar dan cuba menyembunyikan sesuatu. sejauh mana ia boleh dipercayai? aku sendiri tidak tahu.
untuk mengaku dan menyatakan kebenaran,memerlukan keberanian and "no fear of rejection".masa depan yang tidak jelas dan sukar,pada aku,memang menjadi penghalang terutama.no.1. betulkan?

going places

monday.its a lazyyy holidayyy.again.days ive been waiting for something like this.finally i can free myself from all the schedules and the tiring confinement of getting a BDS degree.omg.hehe. looking forward to do something new and something that i like.stuff that does not require me to concentrate my energy and thoughts so much that id wrinkle my head and finally get older.hah! stuff that can make me venture into the other 80% of my normal human brain which i have not yet explore the use of it.such as? as for now,traveling i guess.---ok fine.id still be concentrating energy and thoughts but the wrinkles can be canceled out. =)

my friends and i are planning to go traveling to the northern states of India--New Delhi,Agra,Jaipur&Shimla.my second year of being a beat up dental student is coming to an end and third year is just around the corner.so,before the crazily-hectic clinical year approaches,i better do all my class-bunking sessions NOW.

Itenerary

• travelling dates : 28th February-9th March '09
• number of days of bunking classes : 2 (saint!)
  
• Bangalore-New delhi : 4 hours by flight
• New Delhi-Agra : 3- 4 hours
  
• Agra-Jaipur : -+ 6 hours
  
• Jaipur-Shimla : 13-14 hours
  
• Shimla-New Delhi : 6-8 hours
  
• New Delhi-Bangalore : by train (boarding: 6.45am on 8/03/09-arrival: 7pm on 9/03/09)
  

Weather forecast

• New Delhi : 13-30 degrees celcius
• Agra : 13-32 degrees celcius
• Jaipur : 17-31 degrees celcius
• Shimla : 0-13 degrees celcius

thinking of the journey really excites me.i just hope that my mind is not too fogged up that i cant concentrate in class during these remaining 5 days.hehe.

counting the days...

snippets

exams
finally got back to davangere.back to all my daily routines and the piles of work to be done.*sigh* had exams a week after coming back.kinda sucked at it i guess.omg.nothing much to expect,since i just got back with my mind filled with thoughts of home and suddenly forced to sit for exams.i just hope i wont flunk my papers badly.haha!

of braces&coffee
today went for my orthodontics appointment.got a blue and red stuff at my brackets.kinda cute.something that actually made my day---besides coffee.o yeah,last week i had a bad stomach ache for drinking coffee.dang-it.how can it be? noOoo.id be mental if i dont get a swig a day."dependence" is the accurate pharmacology term to describe this.in my case, its "severe-dependence"?.hohoho. i guess one of the the neurotransmitters in my system is caffeine.

basketball
im craving to play.its almost 7 weeks since i last played.a lot of things came along the way.no time? its just an excuse...not just for not playing basketball,instead,it explains the ignorance most people have for the important stuff.pity.

OCD?
let's not discuss this.my heart pangs.^o^

the hunt

yesterday,i went hunting."extracted teeth hunt".[which is something i should have done like weeks ago when i just got home...instead,i have chosen to do it when there is little time left (3 days) before going back to india].this time,I got lucky.a personnel working at the dental clinic said that he would actually save those teeth for me and i can come again to collect them on friday.phew! thank you sooo much.that is very nice of you.=)

i guess this is just me…putting the most important stuff at the very bottom of the list.its not like it doesn’t matter.it does, realllly does, trust me.its just that I am easily carried away by lot of things and important things easily slip away.eheh.i have actually lost count of the trials that I have made to fix this syndrome.to no avail, it happened again and again…and again.i guess that is just how things work,for me at least.i am so used to certain things,be it good or bad and it will turn into a habit…and when it is fixed, its almost irreversible and impossible to unfix it.i guess I have to keep on trying,or not? (bad start *sigh*)

about those teeth,i’d be able to get them right?

sometimes i do feel bad.i want to get those teeth so that i can continue my work,but then again,it also means that i’m wishing for someone somewhere out there to get a very baaad tooth ache that it has to be extracted.psycho.

i'll be going back to india tomorrow night.[dengan berat hati].oohh...tapi perjuangan mesti diteruskan.masih banyak lagi kewajipan yang perlu dilunaskan dan homework yang tersedia menanti di atas meja stadi.

"rumah kata jangan pergi,india kata mari"

hehe.greeeaat.

i pray that i have the strength to endure this new semester,dengan hati yang tenang dan akal yang lebih matang.

a small thought:still lot of things to be done to improve myself.iA

kembali berfikir.

adjustments

the past few days have been a little awkward for me.maybe due to the fact that my dad had just been transferred to a new working place and its in another state a little too far away from home.its not supposed to be that much of a big deal,really,since my brother&i too have been to boarding schools and stuff,so,its almost rarely for everyone to be at home altogether.

last saturday,i just got back home for a short holiday -- 20 days (+ few days of extension).the next day,sunday,my dad made his way to the new place.*sigh*.and as of now,we have to live separately and that made me feel weird.

now i can understand how some of my friends whom have parents working off shore and just see them once in three months and some who live under one roof but never sees each other, get what i mean? to me,in such situations, the most important thing is to know they are doing fine.right? the house phone bills will definitely shoot up from now on...hehe.luckily the internet rates are fixed at rm77 per month.phew!

thank god for technologies! we're no longer relying on passing messages in a bottle.yikes!

collide by howie day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

home

the feeling of walking through the front door is soothing.
finally away from the foreign land and back to a very familiar settlement.
finally i am able to set my eyes on familiar faces again,hearing familiar voices,and just to "be there".
im home.