Thursday, January 29, 2009

the hunt

yesterday,i went hunting."extracted teeth hunt".[which is something i should have done like weeks ago when i just got home...instead,i have chosen to do it when there is little time left (3 days) before going back to india].this time,I got lucky.a personnel working at the dental clinic said that he would actually save those teeth for me and i can come again to collect them on friday.phew! thank you sooo much.that is very nice of you.=)

i guess this is just me…putting the most important stuff at the very bottom of the list.its not like it doesn’t matter.it does, realllly does, trust me.its just that I am easily carried away by lot of things and important things easily slip away.eheh.i have actually lost count of the trials that I have made to fix this syndrome.to no avail, it happened again and again…and again.i guess that is just how things work,for me at least.i am so used to certain things,be it good or bad and it will turn into a habit…and when it is fixed, its almost irreversible and impossible to unfix it.i guess I have to keep on trying,or not? (bad start *sigh*)

about those teeth,i’d be able to get them right?

sometimes i do feel bad.i want to get those teeth so that i can continue my work,but then again,it also means that i’m wishing for someone somewhere out there to get a very baaad tooth ache that it has to be extracted.psycho.

i'll be going back to india tomorrow night.[dengan berat hati].oohh...tapi perjuangan mesti diteruskan.masih banyak lagi kewajipan yang perlu dilunaskan dan homework yang tersedia menanti di atas meja stadi.

"rumah kata jangan pergi,india kata mari"

hehe.greeeaat.

i pray that i have the strength to endure this new semester,dengan hati yang tenang dan akal yang lebih matang.

a small thought:still lot of things to be done to improve myself.iA

kembali berfikir.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

adjustments

the past few days have been a little awkward for me.maybe due to the fact that my dad had just been transferred to a new working place and its in another state a little too far away from home.its not supposed to be that much of a big deal,really,since my brother&i too have been to boarding schools and stuff,so,its almost rarely for everyone to be at home altogether.

last saturday,i just got back home for a short holiday -- 20 days (+ few days of extension).the next day,sunday,my dad made his way to the new place.*sigh*.and as of now,we have to live separately and that made me feel weird.

now i can understand how some of my friends whom have parents working off shore and just see them once in three months and some who live under one roof but never sees each other, get what i mean? to me,in such situations, the most important thing is to know they are doing fine.right? the house phone bills will definitely shoot up from now on...hehe.luckily the internet rates are fixed at rm77 per month.phew!

thank god for technologies! we're no longer relying on passing messages in a bottle.yikes!

Monday, January 12, 2009

collide by howie day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

home

the feeling of walking through the front door is soothing.
finally away from the foreign land and back to a very familiar settlement.
finally i am able to set my eyes on familiar faces again,hearing familiar voices,and just to "be there".
im home.