tuesdays

pedo isnt really that bad...hehe. a big PHEW! to that. and its ending in another 3 days time. so, hello PERIO. id be scaling and scaling and scaling. hehe. anyone wants their teeth cleaned?

oh yeah, on the last one day break, we went to Innovative Film City & Wonderla, Bangalore. and its wonderful? hehe. so much fun, the rides are crazier and and easily cost you your voice. *dizzy*
anyone up to it again? really feel like going again. after im cured of course. =)

205 at last

Im finally back in dvg. sigh. after 3 weeks of heaven, i finally came to rest at room 205 BIH. huhh. the hostel is quite vacant as of now since many are not back yet. someone pls remind me why we r back early again? the weather now is super cozy...and i feel like dozing of now and then...all the time. and coffee...yeah. never got enough of that. =) the classes haven't started yet, but, we do have clinics at 2pm from monday-friday. and im posted in pedodontics...gullllp! the high pitch screams of little kids is a norm whenever i walk down the alley at pedo department. it make me feel a little nervous thinking of how to actually work in there. hehe. i dont really think i have problems with kids, they amazes me...(^_^), but, when they become restless when seeing the masked face of a dentist, the super scary dental chair and the revolting smell of clinics, they just become...different? like starting to hyperventilate and moving each and every muscle possible. im thinking of psychological approach right now. this calls for an emergency. i hope ill survive today's pedo clinics. =|

p/s: since this thursday is a holiday...hmm, what do i do?

12:02

how do i know when im angry?

when:
i abruptly stop talking and just walk off from that particular conversation.
i actually raised my voice and rolled my eyes?
my vision automatically diverted from the other person's direction...an unseen barrier is created? im just blinded from that person
i cant do nothing else but to think of ways to subside my anger, but it eventually fails.
i lost my appetite, my throat burns and i get so damn thirsty.
i think of nothing else but just ways of getting back at that person.
i feel like staying in a bubble.

wtv it is, how a human's heart is created in such a way to let go of all this and just forgive amazes me most. i still believe that no matter how much uve been hurt, deeply, u want to forgive.